Joey
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Lost of direction
Tuesday, March 10, 2015 @ 12:10 AM
Here I am sitting on my most beloved sofa, brewing up this post in the middle of the night with half of my eyes closing and I still have to wake up early to settle transcript stuff back in SP. So I have unofficially graduated from poly almost a month ago and I am officially lost in life. Not knowing what I am looking for in the future. I have never thought of this happening to me, and I never could understand what was gap year for. I was never aspired to be a business women. I always thought I would end up in the segment of voluntary work and what not.
Every single time when my girls were talking about what do they want to do after they have graduated, I would be the only one who will always say "I don't know". I am always the one with a large question mark on top of my head. I guess I had seen this coming the very moment I hesitated while choosing maritime business as my 4th choice back in 2012. I don't see any connection with this course, not even after I've graduated. It sucks to feel no direction when everyone else already started building their future.
After all the stress from uni application, I think I have decided on changing my direction to business management in general. I really do hope this decision of my mine would do me good and hopefully it's my first step of finding my direction in life and my future.
Apart from that, I do realise I'm a person who really hate changes, I have no idea how well I will adapt to a new start in the upcoming uni life. Most of my friends plans to go overseas and further educate themselves. I hate to feel that everyone is separating into different ways. I have just adapted to a whole new family and three years has passed in a blink of an eye. Everyone is a keeper, and I would definitely wish to rewind time back to year 1 and redo this again (minus the exam). I think I have succeeded my ultimate goal in poly, that is to be happy every single day. (after all the horrible incidents in secondary school) I'm so grateful to be in this awesome clique and definitely proud to be one of them. ♥
