Joey
Wanxin, 20.
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RANT
Monday, September 22, 2014 @ 9:42 PM

yes yes yes, I want to rant tonight. Why why why is my life so boring. I'm have lived almost 20 years of my life, but I feel that I'm only living in this small bubble of things I'm comfortable with. But there's still so many things I want to do, I have yet to explore. You might say, "then go ahead! Make the move, go after what you want" .... I wish I could. I have so so so many things I want to try, but there's only one hurdle I'll have to overcome or rather jump over first. That would be my mom. How do I even explain I know there's evils out there, everything I do consist of a consequence. But mom, if I don't do what I want to do now, then when? I've been contemplating to pierce a helix piercing like since forever but I'll get thrown out of the house or slap the hell out of me when my mom finds out. What on earth? I, personally, dislike clubbing so neither have I thought of visiting the club one day. (so this is an easy one, I'll never have to sneak out of the house in the middle of the night. This is just pure stupidity) Why do I even have to sneak out like I'm doing something illegal?! This is not how things should turn out to be. Let's talk about something simpler, I wish to hang out till late night. Like any other teenagers would. Nope this will never happen to me, and usually by 9/10pm I'll get text or calls demanding me to head home. Geez really?

This is not really how I imagined my life to be at all. I know it's stupid to say I wish to be independent at this point of life. Who's unhappy of getting allowance and not having to pay own bills. Inclusive of a roof and comfy bed to sleep in. BUT I'm a good example of a confused teenager who's treated like a kid yet I'm expected to act like a grown up. What I hate most is when my mom love to compare me with any other kid she used to know (when her most vivid memories of them is still kindergarten) Oh how good they are at studies, how well they behave. Like they're always at home 24/7 (except school) and well behaved. NO WAY MOM. They've grown up like I am. They curse, they club too. They are just like any 19 year old you find on streets. They have their life too, they argue/ talk back to their moms too. Helllo? how do you expect your kid to grow up and they don't?

If anyone happen to read this, you might question me "but you're only 19, you still have the rest of your life". Tell me, is anyone sworn upon their heads that they're perfectly 100% happy with their life every single minute, every single day they live. This does not mean I'm ungrateful for every single thing I am given by my parents. No one ever, NO ONE, will not ask for more when they know they already have a lot. This is human nature. No one is ever satisfied with everything they own (even if one is extremely grateful), one is always greedy for more. So why do I not have the right to ask for more.

I realized every time, when I do an update it's either I spam photos or I'll rant. Hahhah pardon me.