Joey
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At present
Wednesday, June 13, 2012 @ 11:18 PM
I happened to visit one of my senior's blog and found this 6 things 20-somethings want quite interesting, therefore I decide to write down something I really wish for at present.
1. To figure out my main ambition. I can't really remember if I have a ambition when I was young, like really really young. But after four years of chinese dance and ofcourse a little dance background since young... I somehow set my mind to do something related with dance. To either have a business of my own or to be a dancer. To be honest, being a dancer was more of the main mindset. However I don't think I have the right to think that way, there are much more professional or more experienced dancers out in the world and not all of them get to be a dancer. People often advice us to dream big, but it is unrealistic for me. In addition, my course is way too far from being a dancer. Neither am I in sp's dance because of the dumbass chickenpox. I just hope to figure out what I really want to do down the road~
2. A true friend that sticks by. I know I am blessed with many many lovely friends around me, but what I really want now is a friend to share all my little dark secrets and all other stupid stuff. So far, I think I only have 2/3 qualified and am willing to treat them the same way. Maybe I'm just paranoid, I always feel that I'm just having that one sided friendship. I just found out that I aren't as close to my good friends since p6/sec4. Surprisingly there's always another group of people I always hang out with, is this another bad habit of mine or what? I really want to know if i'm the reason things happen this way eg, i'm not putting in more effort to work the relationship. Pq, ode, log I just hope you guys are willing to stay by me whenever I need you. Thankyou :-*
3. To be an all rounder. Who doesn't envy those smart kids who always do well in their studies and at the same time having so many other leadership position and even able to manage themselves well with their family/friends or even boyfriends. 24 hour is not enough for all of us, I just wonder how the hell they can do so many things and why can't I? So far my investigation results involves: procrastination, social network site, my paranoid mind, forever daydreaming ......... I really have no idea what am I doing with my 24hr and would like to see the everyday plans of an all rounder. I need some solid plans to work toward this goal, maybe a goal in each section of my life. Family, Friends, Studies, SMAC.
4. To maintain leadership within me. I still want to be responsible enough, the ability to perform, work hard, find my strong determination spirit back, be a good team player to all, find my patience back, demonstrate willingness and sacrifice. (if you're a dmb student reading this part, haha it may sound familiar cause some points were taken from mpm, lol) I know I've slacken eversince I stepped down from being an exco, that push from the teachers were no longer there. Since I'm in poly now, expectations are constantly increasing and at the same time i'm on my own. :( It's not that I'm bragging, but it's just kind of what I'm expecting from myself to be a better person in the future. Seems difficult to achieve all these because laziness is always stopping me from everything.
5. To first time ever experience how it feels like to have someone special. Errrrr, i'm just being daring enough to write this tiny wish here. Lol.. i know i'm still young and i'll leave everything for god to plan for me. Like I said this is only a tiny wish within me. :/
All the 'want's are organised to what I want the most (1) to least (5) among all 5 of them. I shall stick to five for now, can't really crack my brain to think what's my 6th one. Sometimes I really love simple questions like this, it will always trigger me to reflect on my life and make me realise and gain even more knowledge of myself. Alrighty, haha and thankyou if you have read every single word I've typed or maybe you'd have left halfway. I hope that this would have been useful to you upon reflect on your life! :)
Oh one more thing, bon voyage to my sister going to Korea for 2 months. Going to make her buy so many stuff for me! Just nice it's 1109, I bet she's on the plane ready for departure to incheon after 7 hours. I'll be sleeping alone in my room for 2 months! My plan is to treat it like I actually do have a room of my own, LOL.
